I have to tell you something about my town. This town thrives on four things:

1) Coffee Shops
2) Hockey (we have three full sized hockey rinks on the same street and one flooded park every winter)
3) The Mills (pulp, and mill)
3.5) (I don’t like the way the decimal floats up in the blog entry page…. actually it’s the numbers that are drooped lower…. oh yeah, the list) The Mines. And this is a .5 because there are no mines in or near my town, they’re all like an hour and a half away.
4) Specialty Restaurants/Shops.

Of course there are other jobs in town, stores, fast food restaurants, construction, that kind of crap… but by and large this is the stuff here.

Now the only thing that hasn’t really been super effected by the recent recession is Hockey. This town fucking loves hockey and we’ve had a guy in the Stanley Cup play offs every year for the past 5. In fact, since the recession attendance at the local hockey rink has almost doubled. Coffee Shops are still doing pretty well because this town fucking loves coffee. I don’t get it honestly, but then again I fricken hate coffee. We have two locally owned coffee companies (one of them has two locations), one locally owned coffee company that’s opened seasonally, a Tim Hortons (a second one is on it’s way) and a Starbucks. In talking to owners/employees of these places they say that business hasn’t really been effected by the downturn.

The mills have been effected a fair amount. We have a saw mill that’s always been in a bit of trouble but they’ve been closed down about a month longer than they were supposed to and recently the pulp mill laid off some guys for six weeks (this effects my father actually).

But the thing that bugs me are the specialty restaurants/shops. I work for a pizza place in town, but I won’t tell you which one… unless I already have…. because… well I might have. It’s part of a pizza chain. Anyways, there’s a specialty pizza place in town called Mojo’s Pizza. Mojo’s Pizza, in the words of GMcC “Rocks Shit”. This is the best pizza place I have ever ate at hands down. It blows the pizza place I work for out of the water easily.

And recently they closed down.

The quality of food and the level of service was absolutely second to none. Their pizza was never greasy and done in the pan crust deep dish style. Loaded with toppings and a crust that is to die for it was known to make people orgasm in their pants (or maybe that was just me). The only downside was cost, and really, it wasn’t THAT expensive. $3.50 a slice or $7.50 for two slices and a drink. A whole pizza cost twenty dollars and it was big, 21″ or something like that, it was amazing, and they had to close. The economy had hit them pretty hard and the place was becoming this dead end street for them. They  had never lost money on the place, always paid bills, and had amazing food. You’d think the bank would give them a loan to get a bigger place? No. Even when the economy was good they refused. This restaurant, started by two kids I went to school with was fucking amazing and it was drowned by a bunch of fucking suits.

And the thing that REALLY gets my goat about all of this? The whole fucking thing has gotten this bad because of paranoia. Businesses were told that tough times were coming so they laid of staff and cut back hours. Then, low and behold, the tough times came. Why? Because no one could afford to spend any money! They weren’t making any so they couldn’t spend it on anything! How stupid are you people!? Of course people aren’t buying anything, they don’t have any money to spend because you laid them off/fired them! BLARGH!

I am so mad that this shop, this place I ate lunch at every friday or saturday afternoon when I picked up my comic books so I could do two of my favourite things at once (eat pizza, and and read comic books), and now they’re gone. I spent $45 and I was the last customer they ever sold pizza to. The pizzas are currently in my freezer, packaged so I may select from any four of my favorite flavours and enjoy my comic books while I consume their food. This will be happiness to me for eight Saturday afternoons.

They’ve both got jobs lined up. One is going to apprentice under a professional chef at a golf course, and the other is going to be a supervisor at a local food chain (thank God it’s not fast food). I will visit them both as the opportunities come up, and I will remind them both how much I loved their food.

It’s sad that extreme paranoia has brought us to this. And I can only pray that something turns it around before another thing that I love disappears.

I’m Dying

September 24, 2008

Well not REALLY dying, but I have some flu they’ve given a name to that causes me to go partially blind when I vommit really hard. I went to the Doc yesterday, they gave me some pills, I slept for 9 hours. when I woke up I was drenched head to toe in my own sweat. Normally I wouldn’t complain about 9 hours sleep except I didn’t know I was going to sleep for 9 hours, I was only supposed to be there for about 45 minutes. Tremendous pain in the ASS.

Anyways. Still feel like crap today, but the shop might explode if I’m not here, or potentially people will break down the door screaming they want their computers right now. When it comes to computers, people do not understand that this stuff takes TIME. This crap doesn’t happen over night. No we can’t give you an accurate estimate as to how long it will take. Yes we will try to get it done as soon as possible. No we can’t bump your computer ahead of everyone elses. No I can’t help that you’re in a poker tournament on Friday.

<sigh>

House Warming on Friday. Here’s hoping I’m verticle for it 😛

OH HEY! My Landlord bagged an Elk last night! It’s her first ever elk so she was pretty excited. I’m going to have to brush up on my wild meat cooking apparently. That having been said I have no idea where she’s puting all this meat. As best as I’ve been made aware all we have is the tiny little fridge freezer. Maybe she’s got a cellar.

Or maybe she knows something we don’t know.

I read an article on Detoxing today. Or more accurately I glanced at the title and thought “hey, Jewels used to do that all the time… or… well not all the time… and it wasn’t… fuck it whatever, I want to be healthy.” So I’m going on a Seven Day Detox as of 5 PM today. I have bought many apples, some snap peas, some carrots, and a cucumber. Cucumber sandwhiches and soup for dinners, and carrots, peas, and apples for snackies. I’m not entirely sure how it’ll go, but I’m pretty excited to see how it comes out.

If any of the 11 of you have any Detox stories, let me know. I will be kind of journaling the event here, so stay tuned.

Then again, there’s an excellent chance I’ll just forget to post.

Openning my Big Mouth

February 8, 2008

There will still be a site update… There will be updating… but I’ve run into a very unfortunate problem.

WordPress won’t let me edit the HTML, just the style sheet…. so let me put that in lam-ens terms…. I can’t build my own house, I can only paint one that already exists.

This isn’t a completely horrible fate, nothing I can’t recover from, just not what I was hoping for. That having  been said I really have no desire to remove myself from WordPress, I don’t think I have any earthly desire to go back to having to reference images from photodump. I want to manage it all from one place like a real boy.

Apparently I can get the thing hosted on another server which will allow me to change the HTML, but that’s extra money I don’t frankly want to spend right now. Maybe down the road, but not right now. That having been said, if this lady is serious about buying my van then I will have no reservations about buying a small server space. So… who knows.

Okay…. now for the real thing.

Things are going fairly well. My Girlfriend and I are learning things about eachother as evidenced by this somewhat rocky week this week, but that satisfies me. If everything was going well, I’d be relatively nervouse. See that’s the thing about relationships people don’t understand; If everything is working out for you two, and you’re not entering into any conflicts, you are going to be royally screwed when you do.

I learned how to bake the peanut butter chocolate awesomeness from my Girlfriend’s mom. It is made entirely out of awesome sauce.

I still haven’t gotten around to actually starting to write for Bear. Well that’s not true, I’ve started, but I keep losing my drafts as I’ve begun writing them by hand. Doing this prevents many standard crap ass errors and gives me a chance to make sure everything flows instead of just letting my mind wander… of course as a down side I keep losing the damn paper. I’m pretty excited though, I’ve got plenty of ideas. I’ve never wrote a single story from two different time frames (Story 1 = x – 7 ; Story 2 = x + 7) so this will be a huge challenge in continuity which is exactly what I need. I fail epically at continuity… epic fail.

Did I mention that my Son is starting grade school?

/Beware the Bear

God Throws Sliders

January 18, 2008

It’s days like this when I realize that God does in fact play baseball and he has no problem with messing with your head. A slider is the most annoying throw in baseball, the reason being is that it has a habbit of ‘wiggling’. It goes a little right then goes left, and it rarely ever dips. And when it’s thrown, it looks just like a curve so the batter (assuming it’s a lefty VS righty or righty VS lefty) will take his swing. Then he gets screwed when he realizes a mite too late that it’s not going to dip to give him that ultimate home run, it’s going to screw his batting average for the night. God does this constantly.

It’s weird to have the guy who plays for you play ‘against’ you.

Student loans denied my application for funding. They feel my van is an $8000 asset that I should be able to get rid of immediately and thusly afford school and shelter and food… They are a heartless husk where good people once were. I guess it makes sense. People abusing the system and so on… I mean if I lived somewhere like Calgary, sure I could sell that van no problem… But this is a small town… I don’t know whether or not they get that or don’t care but… either way this is my situation.

I’m going to try and get to the bank soon enough to see if I can refinance the thing at an attrocious interest rate that will have me paying for it for another 5 or 6 years… but at an affordable rate :P.

We’ll see.

I discovered I work with a Christian lady. She is wonderful and will be praying for me. Please coninue to pray for Brandi’s Sister. She could use it.

– Beware the Bear.

It Happens

January 15, 2008

An update. shocking, I know.

Hopefully I’ll be getting into the full swing of this as time goes on. It’d be nice anyway. We’ll see.

… You know you’re a crappy blogger when you can’t remember what was in your last bloody post.

Okay, I’ve read my last couple posts so now I know where we left off. I have a place to stay now that isn’t my Girlfriend’s house. I am being housed by a couple of amazing people, and this again is a little showing of how God works. I never really knew this couple before. A few one time encounters and a hello when I had seen them at Church, but beyond that not much. Then the husband (We’ll call him “Chief Red”) and I teamed up for a conference we were both speaking at to organize some stuff for the kids at the conference. While this may only have lead to a friendship upgraded slightly from acquaintance; I got to know Chief Red, he got to know me and a seed was planted.

When things took a turn for the worst I asked Chief Red if I could perhaps rent a room. It was kind of out of my means, and I was ready to pass when Chief Red offered the room to me for whatever I could afford until I got back on my feet.

I owe big thanks to Chief Red.

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Chiefly because he’s a nice guy! (Little pun there for Cucumber… not that he reads this thing).

So… outside of that… things are progressing nicely. The boat is still sailing and I’ve got a little more control over the steering (though I am trying to give that over to God) and less and less communication with Family V1.0. Family V2.3 has been mucho helpful and supportive and they continue to bring a smile to my face when I think about how kind and generous they’ve been to me.

But now, I think, it is time for me to move onto the portion of our show where I talk about what’s going on.

My job has mad a position for me in my department so I can get more hours in the week without incessant begging. I’m sure Auntie Tammy grew tired of her retarded nephew (One day at work I asked Tammy to rearrange one of my shifts for me and she did so to the eternal annoyance of Barry who couldn’t get her to do anything for him (mostly because he was notoriously lazy when I wasn’t around). He figured the reason for this was simple “You’re like the retarded nephew she never wanted”. I told this to ‘Auntie’ Tammy; she thought this was hilarious and readily agreed) whining all the time so I imagine that played into this whole thing.

That and I work bloody hard. Always favour the guy who busts his ass for you… this will pay off in the long run.

Class is going well save for our programming class which is off to a slow start because they ordered the wrong textbooks and installed the wrong program for us.

But such as life. That’s right. As. I don’t care if you think it should be is.

OH! I almost forgot! I saw an old friend of mine last night at work and I heard some sad news. Her sister has a brain tumor, and all attempts up to now to remove it surgically have met with failure. She’s getting ready for Chemotherapy but they family isn’t terribly confident that things will turn out for the better. For those of you that pray, if you could pray about this that would be great.

-I’m Still Standing

PS: I still want a Hot Dog.

Ohana

January 2, 2008

Life is kind of funny. It’s amazing how little things fall together so nicely in just such a fashion that you go ‘woah’. Buying a Sleeping Bag rated for -15 weather for camping in the summertime was really stupid at the time… but then I became homeless. This is an example of course, because I haven’t become homeless. Instead quite an amazing thing has happened to me.

I have found a Family. My Girlfriend, who I cannot express enough love for (I love you!), talked to her parents some time before this whole thing became what it is and they decided that should I ever be removed from the house they would take care of me… And they have. I’ve had several meals, good people to unload on, and a sense of Ohana that I’ve never had before. Ever. I’ve never had the absolute knowledge that the roof I slept under was one that would in fact shelter me, and would not be pulled out from under my feet. I’ve never known for certain that the two people sleeping down the hall cared a great deal about me and would concern themselves with everything that’s happening, but also respect my opinion and my decision no matter what. I’ve never felt like it would be inconceivable to leave me behind, that I was not an inconvenience.

This past week or so has been… Incredible, but this word fails to describe just how amazing things have been. I will never, in all my years of living and writing and telling stories, be able to express in words what this has meant to me.

I love you guys, thanks… And for now that will have to do.

I don’t hate my family (Version 1.0), but I am done with that part of my life. They are not truly interested in being involved with me and probably never were. It’s not healthy for me to be there and it is time for me to go. Things probably won’t get much better, talking with my Girlfriend’s dad (a very wise and brilliant accountant) has brought me understanding of that (which is wonderful because all I had for that was a feeling of sadness) and with that understanding acceptance… And with that acceptance strength.

I’ve known all along that there are those who would stand by me, those who cared and loved me for exactly who I am and nothing more, but… Not so much that I allowed myself the strength they were offering. Being here has made me realize it’s not enough to offer a brother the help he needs to move his boulder up the hill. Some times you have to ask a brother to help you move your own. I’m learning this.

Albeit slowly but hey, what’ya want from me?

I know what I want from me. A hot dog. With Ketchup and Mustard and Relish…. ooooooh baby.

I’ve done what I can to adjust the sails, and I’ve found it much easier to do so with other people on the boat (and how much easier it is when you don’t have to twist their arms to get on the thing). I’m headed for uncharted waters though. There could be chop, or white caps, or rainbow trout… I really don’t know…

But I’m excited.

P.S. The Boat’s name is Laredo.

My Girlfriend tried her hand at cooking today.

Not Kraft Dinner.

Real food. Incredible, I know. Guiness, and the CDC, wait on bated breath. It was pretty good actually. It had a kick to it.

The cooking process was….. interesting. Pleanty of things she didn’t know (e.g. Don’t throw the meat into the pan) and some things she did (e.g. washing vegetables is good!). I helped, a little more than I was supposed to, but I’m glad I did as it was a very stressful time for her.

We lived for those of you concerned… A few intestinal problems, but we’re still kicking.

Had my first Chem class, and I’m taking it with the Emperor’s Flower as it turns out so it’s not half bad… Except for this really Gorramn annoying kid who sits in front of us. He has thick glasses, talks in a weird voice, contridicts the teacher constantly, thinks he knows everything… and my lady says that he failed last year doing the same thing. She was actually very annoyed with him. You should see her. She’s looking for her Dad’s gun right now.

We shall call this man… Doctor Spanky.

Such as life I suppose…. I was called a know it all during my computers courses I suppose…. even given the nickname Wizard….. of course I did know pretty damn close to everything, so I had the crap to back it up. Hoorah.

Oh, and I won a Drumbstick (fancy frozen ice-cream cone) today because my Girlfriend, her sister, and another girl couldn’t push me into a wall. They whined, I gloated. Did a little MC Hammer dance too…. It was great. Like Mozzerella cheese is great.

Well that’s all I have to say for now. Not sure if updates will become more regular, but I’ll try… This was easier when I had a laptop…. Something I will consider for down the line.

I’m Still Standing.