I’m Alive

May 4, 2008

Did anybody see Pearl Harbour? Say what you want about Ben Afleck, but that was an amazing movie and I think he was a fantastic Dare Devil. On a further note, I love that part where Ben Afleck writes to his woman and it opens with “This is the first I could get out word… I’m alive.”

Anyways. I’ve been busy as you might have guessed. Exams and final projects and work and a few hours for sleep here and there. That having been said I also kind of forgot I had a blog really, just being busy doing stuff. So as an update…

I’ve joined WCHL hockey (http://www.wchlhockey.com) as the General Manager of the Florida Panthers. I’m hoping to have a webpage up and running for my team, and when I get around to it I’ll let you know.

My Girlfriend and I had our 1 year anniversary on March 26th. It was getting rocky for a while there, admittedly, but we’ve made it, and now that exams are over we’re working on strengthening what have. And now she is reminding me that I need to give one of her teddy bears a story. And I’m also told I’m not allowed to write it here.

I’ve thrown myself into another writing project (like I don’t already have enough of them on the go) and I might have some stuff to say about that soon.

For now though, I’ll leave you with this and then go on my way. Have a good one!

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I think Tuesdays and Fridays are officially going to be post days. See I have this programming class, but of course I’ve don pretty well all of this crap twice before, just with some slightly different syntax. It’s like listening to Tom Cochrain and then Rascal Flats do a song. It’s the same song, just sounds different…

In other words I’m board out of my skull.

But it has given me a chance to get back into the web swing of things. Checking Web Comics, Reading News Posts, Playing around on Facebook, Writing, and of course writing posts on my own blog. Now the only thing I really need is for this computer to have Photoshop so I can work on the layout.

My Girlfriend has a slight incling to RPGs. I rented one the other day to play while she did homework and she really got into it and has hinted that she might enjoy playing it with me. The game is “Mass Effect” and I have to say, I highly recommend it at this point. I mean, I haven’t gone that far into it… but I’m REALLY liking the gameplay right now. Most games that I’ve played with the whole “Treat people like dirt or treat them well and this will change how people react to you” thing have generally sucked and have only changed one or two things at the very end of the game… The way I’ve treated people thus far has already had drastic effects. I really can’t wait to get into it.

Last Sunday was gaming night. Myself Spartan, The Bassist, The Peck, and [Nick Name Pending] started our D&D campaign…. and it went fairly well I have to say. The funny thing of course is we’re not playing the campaign I made for us. Seriously I must have spent 10 hours making up this campaign about invaders from the West attacking the Orient and then I started this completely random campaign to waste time while we waiting for The Peck and they loved it and that’s all we played, and that’s what the want to continue to play…

Go figure… of course now this has kind of become a test for me… How far can I go making things up as we go allong?

Where We’re Headed Now.

January 25, 2008

Oh, we’re headed places, let me tell you.

So there’s a new feature that’s been added to WordPress that makes me all happy on the inside…

The free space available on WordPress has been updated to 3GB. WordPress is now officialy made of awesome sauce. That’s right, I said it.

I’m actually in class right now. Tee hee hee. I really love my class too. I get to crack jokes with a bunch of guys who are taking this course because they have to, which is also crossed with they need to pass it but don’t care enough to do that well. As a teacher this would annoy me, but as a fellow student, this is high gorramn hillarious.

My girlfriend liked the last half of her gift, which I finally managed to finish and give to her (It really sucks being kicked out of your house). She’s still annoyed with the cliff hanger fashion I write with however, but I’m excited to continue with it. I think that’s kidn of been symbiotic part of our relationship. She enjoys having something written for her, and I enjoy having someone who will ‘push’ a bit for some of my writing so I can keep up with it.

Spelling/Grammar (like Manor/Manner) is still a problem… more on the spelling side of things but meh. She’s volunteered to be my editor… a mistake that I will not give her time to regreat.

Well now that I have this space I’m obviously going to have to upload more pictures….. of course first I’ll need a camera… crap…. well atleast I can start on a layout. Now all I have to do is wait for them to offer CSS formatting for free :P… well it is only 14 bucks…. I’ll ponder this for a time.

/I’m Still Here

God Throws Sliders

January 18, 2008

It’s days like this when I realize that God does in fact play baseball and he has no problem with messing with your head. A slider is the most annoying throw in baseball, the reason being is that it has a habbit of ‘wiggling’. It goes a little right then goes left, and it rarely ever dips. And when it’s thrown, it looks just like a curve so the batter (assuming it’s a lefty VS righty or righty VS lefty) will take his swing. Then he gets screwed when he realizes a mite too late that it’s not going to dip to give him that ultimate home run, it’s going to screw his batting average for the night. God does this constantly.

It’s weird to have the guy who plays for you play ‘against’ you.

Student loans denied my application for funding. They feel my van is an $8000 asset that I should be able to get rid of immediately and thusly afford school and shelter and food… They are a heartless husk where good people once were. I guess it makes sense. People abusing the system and so on… I mean if I lived somewhere like Calgary, sure I could sell that van no problem… But this is a small town… I don’t know whether or not they get that or don’t care but… either way this is my situation.

I’m going to try and get to the bank soon enough to see if I can refinance the thing at an attrocious interest rate that will have me paying for it for another 5 or 6 years… but at an affordable rate :P.

We’ll see.

I discovered I work with a Christian lady. She is wonderful and will be praying for me. Please coninue to pray for Brandi’s Sister. She could use it.

– Beware the Bear.

It Happens

January 15, 2008

An update. shocking, I know.

Hopefully I’ll be getting into the full swing of this as time goes on. It’d be nice anyway. We’ll see.

… You know you’re a crappy blogger when you can’t remember what was in your last bloody post.

Okay, I’ve read my last couple posts so now I know where we left off. I have a place to stay now that isn’t my Girlfriend’s house. I am being housed by a couple of amazing people, and this again is a little showing of how God works. I never really knew this couple before. A few one time encounters and a hello when I had seen them at Church, but beyond that not much. Then the husband (We’ll call him “Chief Red”) and I teamed up for a conference we were both speaking at to organize some stuff for the kids at the conference. While this may only have lead to a friendship upgraded slightly from acquaintance; I got to know Chief Red, he got to know me and a seed was planted.

When things took a turn for the worst I asked Chief Red if I could perhaps rent a room. It was kind of out of my means, and I was ready to pass when Chief Red offered the room to me for whatever I could afford until I got back on my feet.

I owe big thanks to Chief Red.

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Chiefly because he’s a nice guy! (Little pun there for Cucumber… not that he reads this thing).

So… outside of that… things are progressing nicely. The boat is still sailing and I’ve got a little more control over the steering (though I am trying to give that over to God) and less and less communication with Family V1.0. Family V2.3 has been mucho helpful and supportive and they continue to bring a smile to my face when I think about how kind and generous they’ve been to me.

But now, I think, it is time for me to move onto the portion of our show where I talk about what’s going on.

My job has mad a position for me in my department so I can get more hours in the week without incessant begging. I’m sure Auntie Tammy grew tired of her retarded nephew (One day at work I asked Tammy to rearrange one of my shifts for me and she did so to the eternal annoyance of Barry who couldn’t get her to do anything for him (mostly because he was notoriously lazy when I wasn’t around). He figured the reason for this was simple “You’re like the retarded nephew she never wanted”. I told this to ‘Auntie’ Tammy; she thought this was hilarious and readily agreed) whining all the time so I imagine that played into this whole thing.

That and I work bloody hard. Always favour the guy who busts his ass for you… this will pay off in the long run.

Class is going well save for our programming class which is off to a slow start because they ordered the wrong textbooks and installed the wrong program for us.

But such as life. That’s right. As. I don’t care if you think it should be is.

OH! I almost forgot! I saw an old friend of mine last night at work and I heard some sad news. Her sister has a brain tumor, and all attempts up to now to remove it surgically have met with failure. She’s getting ready for Chemotherapy but they family isn’t terribly confident that things will turn out for the better. For those of you that pray, if you could pray about this that would be great.

-I’m Still Standing

PS: I still want a Hot Dog.

That’s one of my favourite lines from “Firefly”, a little known TV series from fox that ran for half a season then died out. A movie was made closing up the story called Serenity…. well not closing it up so much. Anyways, thought it applied here.

Been busy with exams and school and failing Calculus. Yes, apparently I cannot master really horribly illogical things called derivatives. They make no sense to me and make me want to barf… of course the beautiful thing is that first 4 or so weeks of the course where my professor taught us all of nothing (not true, he went over some random useless experiment like 800 times) and only the people who could figure it out from the text book passed the first midterm. We did sit him down after that and said “look butt monkey, you need to teach us” on the pressured advice of my girlfriend (We were all just going to go to the Board of Directors)… He started teaching us… but unfortunately for many of us (including myself) it was too little too late.

There were three classes for Calculus when the first semester started all taught by the same guy, all full. The second part of the course is only being offered in the second semester, and I’m told there’s plenty of room.

I don’t feel too badly though, one of the smartest guys I know barely pulled a C.

Everything else went okay though. Good English grade good Chem grade… I’m a happy camper as it stands… Of course I’m going to be working Graveyards pretty quick here which will no doubt prove interesting.

Got most of my Christmas shopping done, just one or two things left… and I need to finish off Rhya’s Christmas presents. Slow process.

I’m sorry for the lack of updates. This was far easier when I had an abundance of free time after 5 PM…. now I’m pretty much all school all work and some sleep. I’ll try to keep you posted through the holidays though. Try.

I wont make you guys any promises, I just don’t have the ability to do that. I’ve said in the past that I’ll get back to a schedule, but it’s just not feasible… Things happen, and this will likely take a back seat to other crap going on.

Anyways…

That’s all I can think of right now. I’ll try and hit you back in the near future.

My Girlfriend tried her hand at cooking today.

Not Kraft Dinner.

Real food. Incredible, I know. Guiness, and the CDC, wait on bated breath. It was pretty good actually. It had a kick to it.

The cooking process was….. interesting. Pleanty of things she didn’t know (e.g. Don’t throw the meat into the pan) and some things she did (e.g. washing vegetables is good!). I helped, a little more than I was supposed to, but I’m glad I did as it was a very stressful time for her.

We lived for those of you concerned… A few intestinal problems, but we’re still kicking.

Had my first Chem class, and I’m taking it with the Emperor’s Flower as it turns out so it’s not half bad… Except for this really Gorramn annoying kid who sits in front of us. He has thick glasses, talks in a weird voice, contridicts the teacher constantly, thinks he knows everything… and my lady says that he failed last year doing the same thing. She was actually very annoyed with him. You should see her. She’s looking for her Dad’s gun right now.

We shall call this man… Doctor Spanky.

Such as life I suppose…. I was called a know it all during my computers courses I suppose…. even given the nickname Wizard….. of course I did know pretty damn close to everything, so I had the crap to back it up. Hoorah.

Oh, and I won a Drumbstick (fancy frozen ice-cream cone) today because my Girlfriend, her sister, and another girl couldn’t push me into a wall. They whined, I gloated. Did a little MC Hammer dance too…. It was great. Like Mozzerella cheese is great.

Well that’s all I have to say for now. Not sure if updates will become more regular, but I’ll try… This was easier when I had a laptop…. Something I will consider for down the line.

I’m Still Standing.

I’m Still Here

September 4, 2007

I’ve just been busy… VERY busy. Let’s start from the beginning shall we?

Or at least what I’ve decided is the beginning. That’s right, this is my blog.

I lost my job. Yes, my fancy computer job. I was laid off and I now work for minimum wage at a fast food place nights and grave yards so I can go to school this September. Of course this is not so much fun, as I have to work pretty well full time so I can afford things I put myself into debt for… like my vehicle.

And many of you are saying now “Retard, why did you put yourself in debt?”. And I answer with, “Up yours,” followed by, “Because I wanted a vehicle that wasn’t going to fall apart on me, so I purchased a nice van my parents were going to give back at the end of the lease. And I did this, because my previous boss said my job wasn’t going to disappear, that I had nothing to worry about, and everything would be fine.”

A week later and I’m given my walking papers. I mean, I was nervous at first, but my boss gave no real indication that anything was going sideways, then one day after being at a clients at 5 in the bloody morning till about 12, he just hands me my papers and tells me to turn in… well everything.

I’m left with several issues, most of which can be summed up in the word bills. Unfortunately, working a minimum wage job or even above minimum wage, wasn’t going to be enough to cover bills and save any money. I wanted to move with my Girlfriend when she moved for school, so this wasn’t suitable… However, in a moment of sheer genius (Read: What the F*** was I thinking?) I realized that if I went back to school, I could stop payments on student loans, I would get 200 odd dollars from the government because of some stuff with my mom, and working a minimum wage job for 30 hours a week would give me enough to pay bills, plus some for saving… And I could get more education.

Bachelors of Science in Computation to be exact. Which would give me more than enough education to say, start my own business… Mighty Wings Designs might find wings after all.

Unfortunately, this has left me working like crazy, doing pretty much all grave yards, and neglecting… well a lot. I was doing a big website project for a friend that has had to take a back seat, which has been a hard thing for me as I gave the man my word. My Girlfriend hasn’t seen me in forever, and we’ve had practically no time together. I’m doing the job I have now, plus some for saving for school… and I’m just generally tired. I really am worn down. I’m having trouble functioning on most levels, and my knee is killing me… and I’m stressed…. Which doesn’t happen that often.

<insert sigh here>

But I suppose there is one bright side to all of this, other than the fact I’ve FINALLY made an update to my blog…

I’m Still Standing.

An Appology

September 4, 2007

I love you.

 You knew that, or I imagine you did. But lately, I realize, I’ve done a bad job showing it. So here I am expressing to you publicly, how truly sorry I am for that.

You’re going to be fine. I know this somehow. If you were going through the same things that you’re going through now last year, I wouldn’t know that. In fact I would doubt you would be okay. But you are stronger than you realize. But I realize it, and that counts for something.

I’m still here. I’m still someone to lean on, someone to snuggle up to, someone who will be there to cry to, we’re just going to have to get creative on the timing.

We will find time. Things have changed all at once for me and for you, and you’re right, we haven’t had time to adjust. But we will. I know this somehow.

You are the love of my life, and I promise you, I won’t jeopardize that.

You want unprepared? I haven’t even got paper, let alone a binder.

I love you. I’ll see you tomorrow morning.

Big Kiss.